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poniedziałek, 13 sierpnia 2012

Green tea cake rolls and some memories

Today's evening is so nostalgic.
Eating green tea cake rolls




and.... Spice Girls <333
After their performance in London
I can't stop listening to them.
I can't even look at their songs objectively.
It is just my childhood^^ So many emotions.

Viva forever <333



So many memories.
I remember when we danced to Stop
at Mini Playback Show at school...
I remember a friend I do not speak with now...
getting all excited together with every new song
or arquing who will be Emma in our play,
or watching Viva to record SG music videos on VHS,
collecting stickers!
They were attached to lollipops!
I still remember their taste...


From SG I went to Aaron Carter.
My first virtual crush XD
I was wearing his hair style all my childhood XD


OMG I had three notebooks
with his photos glued there...
and many T-shirts.



Oh miss you forever:3

wtorek, 15 maja 2012

Vexations

Have you ever tried listen to Vexations
for more than a few minutes? 
For those who do not know what I am talking about
a few words of explanation.
Vexations is a music piece of Erik Satie
that should be played 840 times to fully get its meaning. 
Our teacher on the course about dance
made us listen to it for more than one hour.
(the topic of a lesson was about the meaning of repetition)

More than one hour of a very monotonous music.
After a few minutes you just loose the sense of time.
You have no idea if you listen to it for 5 or 50 minutes.
Then you are just fleeting between a dream and a reality.
But imagine listen to it for 10 or more hours!

It is such an unforgettable experience.
Try it at home to better understand what a repetition is
and how crucial meaning it has on our life
(no matter how strong we want to escape from it-
it is impossible)

czwartek, 1 grudnia 2011

Some thoughts about visu and vk progam in polish tv

Lately we could see the Galileo program
about visual kei in Polish tv.
It was made in 2009 in Germany.
I would like to share some thoughts about it.


I was really happy and shocked to see vk
in Polish tv and in fact I think that some people
have exaggerated with negative opinions about it,
but of course that this program was not perfect....

The first thing is that this program was not just about visual kei,
but it was mostly about visu. 
Their aim was not to present vk history, its diversity, but they 
wanted to show the subculture.
They said only a few sentence about the history.
But just a shame that they did not mention 
something more important or at least true....
First wave of vk had its root in glam rock
not in a rebellion against society.
Such theories are annoying.
Of course that some people can perceive it as a form of rebellion
and we can show it as one of the cause of spreading vk,
but do not exaggerate with it. 

Some other errors and general notes:
♥ they translated kei as an origin.
In fact kei means style or system and 
it is used to describe different waves
in fashion, music or generally in culture or life. 
♥ why they were showing An Cafe all at the time?
they should show band of different styles
♥ polish translation...
they badly translated convention...
and they wear saying lolitaS all the time.
In German by s you can make plural 
but speaking lolitas in polish makes it sound funny.
Polish has its own way of making plural....
♥ Lolitas can not have their own cosplay, 
because loli is not a cosplay !!!
But plus that they called lolitas as nice guests
in vk world, but not as a definite part of it.
Of course that lolis were connected with vk in its origin
(specially Gothic ones and let's remember 
about the theory that first lolis were Nagomu gals),
and still many lolis like vk, but it is bot a rule. 
Some lolis are not interested in vk or even in Japan at all. 


♥ calling a dance of fans during concerts
as para para is not true....
♥ I have to say it:
one girl had a badge with Versailles
yees seeing it in my own tv was priceless XD

Now one more important thing. 
Some people were interested how they came with
this word visu.
We do not use it all.
I asked my German sis about it.
All quotes used by permission^^

Word visu is really used in German. 
People who are not interested in vk
can use it for all fans,
but among fans it is used in a little negative meaning.

(...) people who know VK but think in a different way about the scene 
call some other fans of vk 'visus' because it's meant in a more badly way.
For me a typicall german 'Visu' would be 
(and sry for all these prejudices, but they are very true over here...) 
a mostly fat (of course there are also normal and thinn) girl 
with no sense of style or what she should wear, 
tries to wear typicall vk cloth or what they idols wear, 
instead of normal cloth and have terrible make up 
and no sense for anything that is important in their real life. 
And truly they try to be very cool, 
but are such kids and just life for they fandom (Kinda life-escape). 
Of course there are guys, too and girls that don't fit in that shape... 
But 98% of the scene are girls like I described. 
Otherwise I would call them just fans and show them more respect for them and their interest.

So that means that visu is used 
for some extremely fangirling types
who have no life except vk
and wear vk clothes, because they want to look like their idols.

Sis told me her interesting 
categorization:
1. there are normal fans, who look normally, nice, maybe coord bandshirts on concerts
2. There are visus, who dress up themselves, 
mostly in a very bad way, try to be fangirlish, but they don't harm anyone
3. there are visualer (strnger form of visu xD) who are very loud, 
annyoung, even worse dressed and think they are the top of the fans-world
4. Visualisten (most strong world we invented in German xD) 
whoeven top the visualer with their kind of behaviour and dressing up.

Look at it with a wink of course. 
Generally I do not like any categorization,
because in this way you can harm somebody,
but it just shows some tendencies. 
I remember that I read an academic article
written by a Japanese teacher from German uni
who made a research among vk fans in Germany.
Results were quite similar. 

czwartek, 10 listopada 2011

Once there was a king...

I do not really know what is going on in this week.
Almost all lectures were cancelled. A lot of time... to waste XD
Anyway I try to find myself something to do.
Today my friend taught me how to play go.
He is really good at it and of course he won every time,
but in the end at least I was able to control some territories XD

BTW Blood Stain Child concert was cancelled...
I am not such big fan, but in fact
I expected it....
Now I do not have any concerts on my list
until the end of the year and even longer...
I hope some announcements will be made soon...
I want to get excited again and not just
spend all my time missing someone..

Anyway today I want to share
one of my favorite songs from childhood.
I always have tears in my eyes when I hear it.



Once There Was a King from Tytus Majerski on Vimeo.


I had no idea that such video was made
to this song!!!

I think that this story suits perfectly
to the aesthetics I prefer.
It seems so sweet and fairy-tale like
with a king, a page and a princess.
There is a castle and roses.
But then a tragedy happens.
And you are still not sure what it really means...
Sweet cane, a gingerbread and a marzipan?
After hearing it you feel completely lost.
And the interpretation from this video is specially dark.

I remember that when I was a child I hated animals-shaped chocolate
(I still hate when my grandma buys me Santa Claus for Xmas
or bunnies for Easter...)
it is so strange to eat it...
and I always think about this song then...

I love such sweet-bitter stories...
I think this is exactly the reason why I love Lolita Fashion.
It also lies on a boundary.
Sweetness and innocence
with a little darkness and morbidity.
Cute doll with a dark soul.

poniedziałek, 17 października 2011

Silent jealousy

My today's mood can be described by a song
Silent jealousy (X-Japan).
Here are lyrics:

I'm looking for you
Trying to reach your roses
Carried away by the time
when being smashed by a maddening silence

You've gone away
From the stage
Leaving no words
There's just fake tears left
I look for a bouquet of roses decorated by pearls of fiction

I'm blind insane
In the red of silence
Now I've lost your love

a puppet fed by a illusssional love

Get me on my feet
Get me back to myself
Pretend you love me
look at me dyed in a scarlet up to my fingertips

I can not stand this serenade of loneliness
floating in a sea of virtual images
even if I hold my feelings
a bloodstained angel
has already woken up from a dream
I can not stop

Silent Jealousy
Don't you leave me alone
Falling into a sadness
decorated by a love that can not come back
in a middle of repetitive loneliness

Tell me true Wherever I go
I can learn to love this pain
I still want your love Stop this love
Erase the memory blooming into madness

I just wanted to stay with you
I just wanted to feel your breath of grace
I didn't know what to do
I couldn't say anything
When consciousness returned
Everything had been washed away
by the tide of time, even you
But the scars of memory never fade away
I can't stop loving you
Stop my tears
Stop my loving
Kill my memories

You dyed my heart in blood
No way to kill my sadness
Before leaving kill me
I am not able to see anything by my eyes
full of mad love
even now I miss you
Can't live without you

Silent Jealousy Falling in a dream
the memory that I hold
Stay in yesterday stop the time
Erase this repetitve loneliness

Take me back to the memory, to the dream

Silent Jealousy
Don't you leave me alone
Falling into a sadness
Kill me, Love

(Japanese part translated by me
sorry for a bad style, but
I do not have an experience with songs)

Still thinking about Kamijo...
or rather two Kamijos...
I love them in very different way,
but I still love them both^^
Like two different people...




My depression continues...
but thanks to my friends I feel much better.
Not everything is lost yet!
I am really happy to have such amazing friends...
I am not even worth them... 

And I read in tumlbr 
that before Versailles concert in France
flyers about Satsuki's concert
were distributed!
*nervously waiting for news*
Next dreamed concert?
Yay!

niedziela, 2 października 2011

Searching for a blue bird...

Finally I am going to write something 
about a blue bird.
I planned to write it for quite long,
but needed time to gather information.

Inspiration: of course D's song

The motif of the blue bird appears in many cultures,
but in Europe it is best known
where a king is changed into a blue bird as a penance
for breaking a promise
(which he made to an ugly princess by a mistake),
but he is still faithful to a princess he loves. 
Even as a bird he still visits the princess every evening.

"And who are you, you charming bird?" said the princess, caressing him. 
"You call me by my name," said the king; "and you pretend not to know me!" 
"What!" said the princess; "the little bird in my hand is King- Charming!" 

But D's inspiration was not this well-known fairytale, but
Maurice Maeterlinck's play The blue bird
which tells a story about two kids Tyltyl and Mytyl
who are asked by a fairy to find a blue bird 
for her ill granddaughter. 

THE FAIRY No more do I. That's why you must look for it. 
I can do without the grass that sings, at a pinch; 
but I must absolutely have the blue bird. It's for my little girl, who is very ill.
TYLTYL
What's the matter with her?…
THE FAIRY
We don't quite know; she wants to be happy….
So here is the blue bird -a symbol of a happiness. 
The fairy gives Tyltyl a magic green hat thanks to which
 he can see souls of all things. 
He sees them moving in a room
and talking to him. 
In D's PV we can also see things moving in air
what seems to be a next inspiration from the play.
Children try to understand real meaning of things.


In their journey they visit The Land of Memory, The Palace of Night,
The Forest, The Palace of Happiness, The Graveyard, The Kingdom of Future...
But no matter where they look for the blue bird they can not find a real one...

TYLTYL But I haven't got the Blue Bird!… 
The one of the Land of Memory turned quite black, 
the one of the Future turned quite pink, 
the Night's are dead and I could not catch the one in the Forest…. 
Is it my fault if they change colour, or die, or escape?… 
Will the Fairy be angry and what will she say?…
LIGHT We have done what we could…. 
It seems likely that the Blue Bird does not exist 
or that he changes colour when he is caged….

Light told children that there is many blue birds in dreams,
but they are not able to live in a daylight.
They just change their color or disappear.
A blue bird from Night's palace died.
It symbolizes the death of illusions.

(...) blue birds of the dreams that 
live on the rays of the moon and die as soon as they set eyes on the sun…. 

LIGHT (pressing him maternally in her arms) Do not cry, my child…. 
You did not catch the one that is able to live in broad daylight…. 
He has gone elsewhere…. We shall find him again….


Children came back home with nothing...
but then they realized that they have a blue bird at home.
Before the journey it seemed to not be blue enough,
but now they see it in different colors and
they give it to a sick child from neighborhood
(a reference to the fairy's granddaughter) .

TYLTYL
Is he blue enough?…
THE LITTLE GIRL
Yes, I am so pleased with him….
TYLTYL I have seen bluer ones…. 
But those which are quite blue, you know, do what you will, you can't catch them….
THE LITTLE GIRL
That doesn't matter; he's lovely….

Just in the moment when Tyltyl gives the blue bird 
to the girl it flies away.
The journey has to start all over again.
Maybe this time children will remember that 
it is the best to start searching in closest places. 
Birds which are close to us 
may not be deeply blue,
but at least the will not disappear
(after waking up)
or change their color. 

This is exactly what D wanted to convey by this song.
They sing it exactly like that

I want you to perceive a warm existence by your site
when you are looking for a blue bird 
that have escaped from an opened birdcage
(translated from here)

What Hide-zou said about this song in a radio:
Unfortunately Japan had a tragic disaster in March. 
From this experience, ASAGI wrote the song to pray for Japan; 
thinking the peaceful time and importance of having ordinary days. 
However not only about the disaster, but also at the same time, 
we had a great experience in Europe and U.S 
and so we are mixing the stuff we've learned from the shows as well. It's a magnificent song.
Asagi said something similar in this interview

In the shadow of a disaster in Japan
they want to show a meaning of 
an ordinary happiness
which people are able to appreciate only
when they lose it.

The part of the song
is sung from the blue bird's point of view.
(Asagi wears the blue bird outfit 
so it suits perfectly)


I know that you are chasing after me
that you are looking after my figure
In a memory 
you can always meet me in an unchangeable form
In a dream 
we can obviously fly past each other in a flower garden
even when your wishes will not be fulfilled  

Asagi seems to sing about blue birds of dreams 
in this part of song.
They dissapear in a daylight, but still 
they are waiting for us in dreams. 
In dreams they will not change their form.
Only there we can fulfill wishes
that are impossible in reality. 

Blue birds of dreams seem to have similar 
meaning of blue roses which
also appear in D' pv. 

As you can see here
quite a lot of the play's adaptions exist. 
I decided to watch the one from 1940.
I chose this one well..
because Shirley Temple is there (yees she is cute XD)
and because it changes a plot in an interesting way.
Mytyl is a selfish girl (she is not like that in the original play)
and thanks to the journey she changes herself.

Children from D' pv

Children from 1940's movie.

When visiting The Palace of Happiness

Finding the bird at home

How D has probably found this play?
In 1980 anime named
Maeterlinck's Blue Bird: Tyltyl and Mytyl's Adventurous Journey
was released in Japan so they had to probably watch it.
I wanted to watch it as well,
but could not find it anywhere on Internet.
I have only found an opening.
Quite nice old-schooled song^^

Babyssb also made a dress inspired by
the story of  the blue bird, but their inspiration
was rather Madame d'Aulnoy's fairytale^^

L'OISEAU BLEU PRINT MADELEINE JSK

(want this dress *_*)

czwartek, 9 czerwca 2011

BDay day

Happy re-birth day to me.

I used to really hate birthday and was down every year.
Now I just do not care. 

Age just do not matter anymore. 
I just want to stay where I am now. 
Hope that during next year I will make
a world I live in even more beautiful.

My Bday roses


Seimu gave me his hat as Bday present haha XD
I really prefer it on me than on him^^



Listening to Kanon Wakeshima'a Lolitawork Libretto...

It's a crescent moon tonight
The scent of peppermint
Softly, the city lights
Adorn the lace dress
The dripping moon
Drops into darkness
Stops time

"The girlish mechanism of a clock's been stolen"
「Is the girl in her?」
"Turn back time"

A magical carriage stops before her
What kind of world will it take her to?

A fantasy from which there is no return
"Stop!"
She can't hear
"Wake up"

A sky sparkling with diamonds
A castle of vanilla cream
A magical country spreads before her eyes

No way she would like to wake up...
Let her live in a magical country 
in a castle of vanilla cream.

czwartek, 26 maja 2011

Watching D dvd....

It was two weeks ago...
I was there looking at them.
Listening to the beauty of their music.
I am D fan for quite long time, but I was never so crazy about them
(they were on the top, but not as high as now...)
In fact ANY concert so far made such strong 
(and specially long lasting) effect on me as this one...

Today I watched their dvd from last year
In the name of justice.
I feel like I was there again...

This concert from December 2010 had really amazing effects.
Like burning torches.
Such things can't be on European tours T.T
It was also amazing that they showed a short movie during concert.
It highlights visual aspects of their music.

Asagi also changed his clothes (even his blond strands disappeared).
And he was singing when sitting on the throne.
And the playlist included Snow white (but not in the version I like).
And they made three encores.....
And the way Asagi smiles.
It looks so strange, but cute in the same way.
Maybe let's skip story about Hizou.
Probably you already know what I feel.

Eden was absolutely amazing.
Specially when Asagi was singing without instruments.
His voice in incredible and makes me shiver....

 ‘Come, take my hand’     If there is indeed a future
    Will you support me amidst the brewing storm?


Just hold me, with a warm light, with that voice and that love
    No longer am I lost; I offer all to you
    Endless, forever

Asagi's voice can really be a warm light.

And here an absolutely over the top cute vid with Hizou and Ruiza♥♥♥

czwartek, 5 maja 2011

Gackt broke my heart again

Today me and Kenroh watched Gackt YFC Documentary dvd.
Lately I was absorbed in other things, but now I feel it again.
Old memories from this holy day comes back.
I remember every detail.
Or maybe better: every feeling.
These tears when I saw him for the first time.
His unbearable beauty.
Beauty which was almost painful.
Everything seemed so unreal.

Here is my relation which I wrote after it.
You can check it here

Tomorrow I will work 10 hours
(yees my beloved perfumes again...)
I will daydream about Him all time.
I want to dream about Him this night.
Now I know:
I will never escape from this sick love.
It can seem like it is almost forgotten or at least settled.
But then it will come back.
Even more intensive and will laugh from my naivety.

(like proverb says:
when you go GACKT there is no way BACK)

I promise I will try not to cry.
But inside me everything is crying.
Crying for seeing Him again.

This summer for sure.

Here is screenshoot with me and my friend from the dvd
yes we are on official dvd!