Changing my wish list?

Lately I do quite a lot of changes 

in my wardrobe,

but still I am unsatisfied with it..

I am a little fed up with print dresses 

and black as well...

Seems like this is a long way before me to complete 

the closet of my dreams...

The time of my graduating is also coming closer

so before it I feel obligated 

to rearrange it.

So dresses I want for everyday wear/work 

would be like:

And for some special occasions:

*oh dreaming*

Well in fact it would be enough to complete 

a decent taobao set of dresses xD

At least before starting a regular job.

More dream dresses in my fbk.

There is a woman at the begining of all great things.

I will show you a dress that does not allow me to sleep lately.

I absolutely fell in love with it...

It is from Surface Spell and

contains Alphonse Mucha's paintings.

Back

Lately you can see a lot of painting prints,

but this is the only only one which made me "oh" to this point^.^

To love for the sake of being loved is human, But to love for the sake of loving is angelic.

-said Mucha and I have to say that my love to this dress is not angelic at all,

because loving is not enough for me,

I must buy it!!!

If you are not sure about paintings on the dress

there is Mucha's Times of Day. 

I love Art Nouveau for using contraries and decorations a lot.

Art Nouveau as at once homespun and exotic, literary and plastic, mystical and erotic, futurist and traditional, functional and fantastic.  It was a perfect illustration of the Hegelian system of contraries, extolled by Oscar Wilde, whereby an artistic truth is only valid if its opposite is equally true.  

(Challié 9)

Flowers on Mucha's painting are not needed in fact.

Paintings would look good without them and this is exactly the reason why they are here. 

We live in an age when unnecessary things are our only necessities

O.Wilde (yes again!)

More: 

So many awesome prints that I can not even choose my fav....

All children, except one, grow up.

Today I will post my next dreamed piece of clothes.

I do not like the shape of dresses,

that is why I want the skirt.

(only in this color.

It is so unique♥).

Peter Pan inspired

Night Fairy Fantasia

This skirt motivated me

to read Peter Pan again.

After so many years.

I really enjoyed the book.

Like before I still (or even more) can't stand Wendy!

So irritating!

Why?

This quote can be an answer:

You need not be sorry for her. 

She was one of the kind that likes to grow up. 

In the end she grew up of her own free will a day quicker than the other girls.

Wendy decided to grow up.

You know that place between sleep and awake, the place where you can still remember dreaming? 

That's where I'll always love you, Peter Pan. That's where I'll be waiting.

She grew up

and left a place for Peter Pan only

in this really short moment

between the end of sleeping and waking up.

Like her father.

(from the movie)

-He's made many sacrifices for his family...and put away many dreams.

-Where did he put them?

-He put them in a drawer. 

And sometimes, late at night, we take them out and admire them. 

But it gets harder and harder to close the drawer.He does. And that is why he is brave.

Does it really mean to be brave?

Wendy did exactly the same. 

Her mother as well.

The only thing that was the sign 

of Mrs. Darling's Neverland

was this kiss in her mouth's right corner.

That is why she gave the kiss so freely to Peter Pan. 

Everybody was in love

with Peter Pan,

but then they just leave it for 

this short moment before waking up.

What about movie?

I liked the atmosphere.

Peter and Wendy were quite cute.

Btw I could not 

resist the thought about 

yaoi motif between Peter and Hack..

my spoiled mind...

And my favourite shot.

When boys were kidnapped and imprisoned by pirates

small Michael's bear was put on a chain as well.

Sorry for it.. but I have such soft spot for teddy bears... 

I have found a wall sticker

with Peter's shadow on ebay

in this shop. 

After painting my wall 

I will buy it for sure♥ 

Unico in Bloomland will make your dreams come true!

I still do not have so many dresses so I do not want to 

buy a few prints with the same motif.

So only one dresses with teddy bears, one with bunnies

and now it is time for ponies/unicorns.

Here are three prints I like:

And newest 

Unico in Bloomland

And the winner is:

..............................

Baby's print has won :DDD

Definitely Unico is now before 

SC and Twinkle journey!

I like it in all colors except black.

Take a look at print's close up.

This unicorn in the middle 

looks like she would like to kiss me.

It reminded me of Novala's poem.

So tie on your head dress above a corsett constrained body,

Train a panie under your skirt and then, if you stand before the mirror,

Will a unicorn appear to bestow a kiss of blessing upon your cheek.

Yes I want to kiss the unicorn ^_^

Unico in Bloomland sounds amazing.

Unico like this Tezuka's character 

created for Sanrio^_^

In this anime/manga Unico has special power of

making dreams come true.

But every time Unico realizes someone's dream 

he is punished by gods

who think that dreams

should be realized by years of sacrifices

and hard work not just

by meeting unicorns....

T.T

This print is also called 

by me Kamijo's print.

Do not ask why. 

Just an effect of crazy talk yesterday XD

Phantom of the Opera

Yesterday I put all D's PVs on my ipod and then finished
watching them all the time...

at work....in a tram... at home...

Today I tried to learn and finished watching them again. 

And this is how new obsession was born:-D

After watching 

yami yori kurai doukoku no A CAPPELLA

to bara yori akai jounetsu no ARIA

I was in a mood for watching Phantom of the Opera again.

I saw it really long time ago and really loved the movie and the music.

Now when watching I imagined Asagi as a Phantom 

which made me loving it much more. 

And all opera, undergrounds, decorations, costumes, masquerade

it all builts such atmosphere to the story

and in the same time satisfies my daily aesthetics' need.

This story is really captivating and

Asagi expressed its beauty in the lyrics very well.

 My dear rose. You are all of me in this world.

In now, the past, and the future. I sing for you.

an abyss      a voice that creeps on the ground      

an a cappella lamentation darker than darkness

a heart fulfilled     a voice that falls from the sky    

an aria of a passion redder than the rose

I never know pleasure to live.

Why was I born such ugly?

(Why?) (You wish?) (Your mind?)

just once, I want to see how it is to love      

even from underneath this ugly mask

to be born into this world without knowing love     

 engulfed by darkness as it is

You must choose! Come with me!

Nobody can stop me!

only lamplight scorches my heated breast     

 for I cannot forget the end of this love

come now, it's alright to go       

it's like you are completely engulfed by light

If you will forget, but even so I will remember forever and ever.

(translation)

Such extraordinary song.

When Asagi sings

ichido dake aisarete mitai      kono minikui kamen no shita made mo

                                       my heart is beating quicker.

Yes my passion is redder than the rose.

In this way new dress is officially added on my wishlist:

Masquearade theater jsk

(I want it only in red

redder than the rose)

How about this necklace to match?

Finally Friend Kumya- chan is mine♥

My most dreamed dress is finally mine.

I still can not believe it.

Am I not dreaming?

I fell in love with it when I was GothLoli.

This is a dress that turned me into sweet.

Such cute bears and mint colour were something that I could not resist.

I almost bought it once...

almost ...

I was looking for it very intensive then.

And one week ago I checked yahoo auctions.

It was strange premonition

(in fact I have never checked yahoo before, only mbok).

I just went into the site and wrote the name of dress there:

なかよしくみゃちゃんジャンパースカート

And I saw it.

It was Sophie.

It was mint.

The only problem was that there was only 14 hours to the end of auction.

Not enough time to contact any ss and to send money to paypal....

it is terrible memory...

I heard my bears crying for me again...

Anyway there was no bidders and the dress was put on auction again.

I contact Japonica market

(btw they are amazing! I recommend their shopping service to everyone)

and they bid the dress for me.

Now my bears are on their way to Japonica market 

and then they will be sent to me^^

I hope that they will reach me before D concert.

It would be somehow a miracle...

But...

do you remember my dream about standing in front of Hide zou 

in mint kumya chan jsk

big bow 

and blond wig?

It has chances to become reality...

Why I love Marie Antoinette?

I think that it is the best time to finally write why I love Marie Antoinette so much.
No. I do not love her because Babyssb made a dress with her name.
I want that dress because I love Marie Antoinette. This is the difference.

Why she seems to be so close for me. Of course this is difficult to be sure about personality of the person who lived so long time ago, but still even if it is just an image which was created by a history, it does not change anything.
What matters is how we see her. Truth was forgotten long time ago.
Marie Antoinette was a princess. Even when she became a queen, mentally she was still a princess (maybe it changed in last years of her life).
She was not supposed to be someone who can rule a country, who can make serious decisions.
She was just a carefree princess. Her manners were perfect. Her all appearance was absolutely appealing. She was an ideal princess who made everyone to be under her charm.
She was Schoenbrunn palace's decoration and the same then in Versailles. Just after three months in Versailles she became a role model for all rococo ladies. She determined all trends and nobody was able to be more fashionable than she.
In her love for beauty I absolutely identify with her. Pretty dresses, decorated chambers and small bibelots. Only between all this things she was able to be herself.
Of course than we all know that she was not guilty in all this necklace's case. But still she was responsible for the fact that people believed in a lie that she was. It was easy to believe considering her love for beauty. This is what brought her to ruin.
But I will say it one more time. She was a princess. Not a queen like her mother. Why is sometimes fate such unreasonable? Why it choses small people without will for reigning to such big roles in a history? Is there any meaning behind it or is it just some kind of useless game?

She was reigning on ball's chambers. Between court ladies.
But it was not enough for her.
Even so her nature was really playful she needed her own escape. Escape from it all.
This is why Petit Trianon and Hameau were created for.
It was her own kingdom. There everything was the way she wanted.
Only closest people were allowed there.
In a heart of Versailles such illusion was born.
It did not matter that it all was not true.
Petit Trianon was just a dream. Was like a dream of a fairytale princess. Or maybe was just the symbol of her longing to Austria? She was still a young girl when she was parted with her mother, siblings and all her life in Vienna. Does not it say a lot that she used to call Petit Trianon Small Vienna?
Hameau was never a real village. All scratches and cracks were painted. Outside it looked like normal village, but inside it was full of gold and silk.
It was not meant to be true. It was her own imaginary world. She wan not interested in normal people's life. She looked for a paradise. No matter if this paradise meant small Vienna, normal world where she could live with Axel von Fersen or some kind of world made by herself. Very faraway and fairy-tale like (weren't seats on her carousels in shape of dragons?).

When Antoinette was handed over from Austria to France she just fell into court lady's arms with cry.
How many times does she have to say goodbye to Fersen?
It all can be considered as stupid, naive talk, but maybe here is the heart of the matter.
Maybe here is the heart of rococo (similar to the way ukiyo leaded to iki in Japan)
When we go further heart of Lolita Fashion.
I do not feel like being meant for bigger world. For big successes. Big goals.
I just want to be a princess who can enjoy her tea in Petit Trianon's living room when wearing her favourite dress. Do not criticize it. Maybe it has a meaning behind it all.

For the end screenshots (made from youtube vid) from Kaya's newest pv.
He is the most beautiful Marie Antoinette ever.
Maybe in fact she was a boy and came from Japan? XD

Shiki and Angelic Pretty^^

I liked Sunako (character from anime Shiki) since the beginning. 

(No.. not only because of her clothes...
in fact majority of her clothes is too dark for me

it was her personality that was so appealing. 

She is exactly my favourite's anime type

cute and dark in the same time

split personality full of deep sadness).

But her outfit in 19th episode....

in such dramatic moment

SPOILER ALERT!

(after Chizuru's death which made me cry..)

Yes! It is Angelic Pretty dress!

I liked this dress before but after seeing it here....

I fell in love much more....

Queen playing cards OP

and matching bonnet

And Sunako wearing it♥

And some screenshots taken by me:

I was never into cosplaying before, but now....

In fact it would not be even real cosplay.

I would wear this dress daily then.

......

Eh my new anime love

I need to start reading manga quickly.

By the way AP dress in not the only Shiki- Laforet collaboration.

Take a look here.

Room in pink and violet....

Pink and violet are my favourite colors...

Just found this shop today.

I want it so badly....

My heart is broken....

If you say that money does not give happiness probably you do not know where to shop!!!

Cloudia - the princess of clouds

Today is my Name's Day.
As most of you know I really do not like my name. I hate when somebody uses it. Specially if this is somebody who is close to me. It is really strange reaction even for me, when I consider that I have the same name like small vampire girl from Anne Rice's stories which I like.... (and it was Lestat who made her a vampire!).
But lately somebody named me Cloudia. My first reaction was No! Don't use this name, but then he explained that it is Cloudia not Claudia and it sounds like a person from clouds, girls living in clouds, when we go further princess of clouds. Don't you think it suits really good to such dreamy person like me?
I have almost finished liking my name (thank you my dear for it^^).

Next thing is that I associate Cloudia with Versailles's song After Cloudia.

To encounter those things I believe in
I always wish I could continue seeing them

I wake up from my dream and you're not here
Every time it makes me more depressed
I conceal my wounds and you disappear
Beneath the sunlight
(translation from here)


It all makes me think about my dream dress Twinkle dreaming princess.

And this mini hat♥

Close-up to the print

All this princess- connected things among clouds. Sweet dreams.

The first I wanted this dress in pink, but I think such navy blue or black not only shows print much better, but also has deeper meaning.

All images are scattered on dark night sky. 

Sky of life can look obscure and sad, but it does not really matter.

Nobody can take dreams hidden between clouds. 

My dreamed car

This car has such lovely shape. It just looks like a car for dolls♥
My mom is happy that finally I have grown up for dreaming about a car^_^

Oh and I want such heart-shaped lights♥♥♥

I will never save money for a car T_T Too many pretty dresses in this world T_T

Crown set which can't get out of my head

I loved this outfit so much when I saw it in nr 27 of GLB . So princessy, so cute with this big jewel buttons and white lace.

But it would be so difficult to find it now... and I am almost sure that the size wouldn't fit me.... 

And now Kidsyoyo made a replica, which look so gorgeous... (and Kidsyoyo has great quality in fact). 

Can i spent my money which were supposed to be for spring coat? 

I still can wear this jacket instead of coat.... so....  

I think about it 8 hours a day at work and still can't decide T_T

In pursue of cute chairs

Instead of learning I waste time watching cute furniture on the Internet^^

I really need a new chair. Mine is quite old and very uncomfortable.

I have found two absolute cuteness^^

But then I have seen this and... I fell in love♥

Of course it's expensive and doesn't suit my room now (but it will because I plan to redecorate my room completely' maybe during holidays) , but I think I will just resign from buying desk chair and buy this one in the future. Now concerts are on the first place^^