Learning...

Yes, I definitely try to learn.

Try very hard.

(even if my thoughts are floating somewhere else...)

It is no my fault 

that I am distracted even by my cute pens...

They are more interesting than learning T__T

I Don't Need Things Like Friends?

How much I love Novala Takemoto's texts!
I would dream to know Japanese enough to translate his works by myself T.T

Here is a part found here

A maiden does not need things like friends. Maidens are sublime and aloof by nature. In stories, the male heros will form cliques and carry out their activities together. Like in Tom Sawyer, Tom, Huckleberry Fin, and Getalobe, joined together and the three of them made the “15 boy’s drifter chronicles”, and then the 15 had to be together; they weren’t adult at all. But young ladies are different. Alice went through the perils of Wonderland by herself, and Anju helped her brother escape from the bandit’s mountain and was abandoned herself. And if you think about Meg, she was always singing, “People say I can do anything but still/ the witch girl Meg is always alone.” Being a maiden is an “absolute existence.” And being “absolute” is by definition “uniqueness” that cannot be compared to others, so maidens need no companions. Like Ken from the gangster movies, maidens have a cool independence. They say things like, “If I open my heart to people I can make friends,” but opening your heart to others is sacrelige, and you musn’t do that. A maiden’s heart is her glittering jewel, and should not be shown to others recklessly.


A maiden stands coldly like a glass pain that seems like it would shatter if touched, encased in a hard shell for protection, and that maiden, tightly bound in a web of honey and gazing at you all alone, isn’t she cute. There is no need for you to integrate yourself with the common people. It’s okay if people say you’re an “arrogant child” or a “gloomy child.” Thinking you can’t eat lunch by yourself and making friends, that’s a really silly thing to do. Being gorgeously aristocratic like Madame butterfly is an indispensable part of being an independent princess. For me, my tv and potted plants are my close friends.



All this does not mean that a maiden should not have friends.
(Momoko is an example that friends are approved by Novala)

It is more a warning to not try to make friends just because of loneliness.
It is not necessary for a maiden to have friends everywhere she goes.
She can feel equally good just being with herself.
Friends need to be choose properly.
In other way you can finish trusting somebody who is not worth of it.
Talking just for talking has no sense either.

Alone world does not need to be dark and full of trashes and broken toys
like Suigintou's one or abyss from Pandora Hearts.
It can be equally or rather much more bright than any other.

Phantom of the Opera

Yesterday I put all D's PVs on my ipod and then finished
watching them all the time...

at work....in a tram... at home...

Today I tried to learn and finished watching them again. 

And this is how new obsession was born:-D

After watching 

yami yori kurai doukoku no A CAPPELLA

to bara yori akai jounetsu no ARIA

I was in a mood for watching Phantom of the Opera again.

I saw it really long time ago and really loved the movie and the music.

Now when watching I imagined Asagi as a Phantom 

which made me loving it much more. 

And all opera, undergrounds, decorations, costumes, masquerade

it all builts such atmosphere to the story

and in the same time satisfies my daily aesthetics' need.

This story is really captivating and

Asagi expressed its beauty in the lyrics very well.

 My dear rose. You are all of me in this world.

In now, the past, and the future. I sing for you.

an abyss      a voice that creeps on the ground      

an a cappella lamentation darker than darkness

a heart fulfilled     a voice that falls from the sky    

an aria of a passion redder than the rose

I never know pleasure to live.

Why was I born such ugly?

(Why?) (You wish?) (Your mind?)

just once, I want to see how it is to love      

even from underneath this ugly mask

to be born into this world without knowing love     

 engulfed by darkness as it is

You must choose! Come with me!

Nobody can stop me!

only lamplight scorches my heated breast     

 for I cannot forget the end of this love

come now, it's alright to go       

it's like you are completely engulfed by light

If you will forget, but even so I will remember forever and ever.

(translation)

Such extraordinary song.

When Asagi sings

ichido dake aisarete mitai      kono minikui kamen no shita made mo

                                       my heart is beating quicker.

Yes my passion is redder than the rose.

In this way new dress is officially added on my wishlist:

Masquearade theater jsk

(I want it only in red

redder than the rose)

How about this necklace to match?

More classic style and D again...

My grandma really would like me to turn 

into classic loli.

She loves such coords as this one

Probably when I will get older 

I will wear classic loli or even some prints from AatP (in light colors)

but give me some time to be happy with sweet ^^

Yeees instead of learning I waste time playing with photos XD

Anyway my ticket for GACKT's gig is bought♥

And I can happily listen to.... D....

Yes I am their slave. .

I have no idea how they did it...

Asagi.... I even know that he is not pretty.. 

but who cares?

He is amazing.

And style can defeat natural beauty.

Watching D dvd....

It was two weeks ago...

I was there looking at them.

Listening to the beauty of their music.

I am D fan for quite long time, but I was never so crazy about them

(they were on the top, but not as high as now...)

In fact ANY concert so far made such strong 

(and specially long lasting) effect on me as this one...

Today I watched their dvd from last year

In the name of justice.

I feel like I was there again...

This concert from December 2010 had really amazing effects.

Like burning torches.

Such things can't be on European tours T.T

It was also amazing that they showed a short movie during concert.

It highlights visual aspects of their music.

Asagi also changed his clothes (even his blond strands disappeared).

And he was singing when sitting on the throne.

And the playlist included Snow white (but not in the version I like).

And they made three encores.....

And the way Asagi smiles.

It looks so strange, but cute in the same way.

Maybe let's skip story about Hizou.

Probably you already know what I feel.

Eden was absolutely amazing.

Specially when Asagi was singing without instruments.

His voice in incredible and makes me shiver....

 ‘Come, take my hand’     If there is indeed a future
    Will you support me amidst the brewing storm?


Just hold me, with a warm light, with that voice and that love
    No longer am I lost; I offer all to you
    Endless, forever

(translation)

Asagi's voice can really be a warm light.

And here an absolutely over the top cute vid with Hizou and Ruiza♥♥♥

My crown set♥

My crown set has arrived♥

I am really in love with it♥♥♥

Sorry for the lack of puffiness but

the pic was taken in my first burst of joy 

without thinking about anything else:-D 

And here are the lovely stickers I bought today♥

Some time ago Monsoon  accessorize shop has been opened 

in Cracow♥

I could spend a lot of money on unneeded things there.

My cork board

I was wearing my small tiara for school^_^

Such things can not be strange for anybody anymore :-D

If you are curious what is behind me 

here is a better photo.

Lately I use my cork board as a jewelery hanger♥

Now I need to think how can I decorate the board itself.